|Approximate Threat, Intaglio with Colle, and Screenprint|
Intaglio and Silkscreen
The imagery presented in Approximate Threat is a culmination of private irrational fears from my perspective as a Transgendered male. The experience of transitioning from one gender to another is akin to having a map without a key or any recognizable icons. The emotional landscape changes radically, and the social shift can feel insurmountable. The borders are crossed gradually over time, as the physical changes settle in. I “pass” as male in virtually every scenario these days, yet I often find myself waiting to be discovered at the most inopportune moment; as if my masculinity is any less real than any other man’s. Although trans men (female-to-male) face less physical violence than our male-to-female counterparts, it does happen, and these confrontations can vary in intensity depending on the situation. The people I am most wary of in my every day life happen to be Caucasian males.
The portraits of the wolves and the man possess a dualistic relationship to my person: they represent my familiar desire to fit into their world and yet they an approximate threat in mine. Each time I enter a new public realm, whether it be a grocery store, barbershop, or gas station, I engage in a visual assessment of my surroundings, in order to determine how safe I am. While in the process of developing the images and printing this edition, I have been forced to confront this fictional aggressor and address my own assumptions about what they may look like. I was compelled to study this image a great deal while working on the etching, and as a result, I began to reconcile my profiling of other human beings. I realized there are no simple answers to moving through this complex identity, that once, when I was female, my assailants embodied this profile. Of course I would carry this history with me in my present life, and be influenced by it. With this admission is the key to a new map, and this new country I am gradually growing into.
|Without Jessi Cerutti, the edition would not have been possible.|
|Pulling the final layer|
|Setting up for the Colle|